I’m not sure how much we’re helping as opposed to hurting. I suppose if we do things perfectly right, then sure we can help. Case in point: Viktal. But here in Briggdarrow? I feel like we failed.
We know the Avanc we killed isn’t the first Avanc. I wanted to get it to Castle Island but it was killed, while unconscious, by Arathmis. It became a mortal man who disappeared years ago when he went to explore Castle Island. I wonder if the men who die there become Avancs. Meanwhile, or just before, an Avanc attacked and killed the Father of Briggdarrow we’d spent the day before talking to about what we intended. We didn’t even want to fight the Avanc that day but after all the blood from those goblins infesting the ritual space…
Worse than all that was Arden. I thought he was dead. Instead he got older and seems confused. I think some of Them saved him. At least he’s alive but he thought years passed. No, no, just a day. We came back to town with sad tidings. I still want to try and get the Avanc back to castle island and end this entire affair.
The people of Briggdarrow were understandably very upset. Our association with recent events drew ire. We were honestly why something happened but only because we fought the goblins at the place where the Father asked us to be certain was clear for their sacrifice ritual. I spent the better part of the day talking to everyone and calming nerves, soothing hurts. Maybe I did it to protect our reputation and maybe I did it because I like these people and feel for them. They want to be happy.
Which is nothing to say for our group which mostly hid. Arathmis had suffered a heart attack as he attacked the Avanc. He has a great deal of blood on his hand. He won’t talk much of his home either. I left it alone but my trust for him is waning, instead of growing. Krajkah seems to feel the same. He was furious with Arathmis. He wasn’t thinking clearly either. He wanted to put Arden’s body on the altar. Esera wasn’t exactly being considerate either, though I know she was trying to help. She just can’t understand the hurt and pain of people. It’s going to cause her a problem. When you’re so innocent you’re blind to the world and how people work, you’re bound to anger people.
We also went to the Shadowryft. Bad idea as I said. From now on, I’m putting my foot down with this group. Luckily Arden can speak the tongue of the fey (gotta learn that) and with birds. Something certainly happened to him while he was… unconscious? We weren’t supposed to be going that way yet, but that way we went. Then a giant winged ooze monster attacked us because Kraj yelled at it. Fantastic. I told them to run. They took their time. Arathmis ran across the trees.
You know, a normal day of monsters, magic, and failure. We got away and learned something, which is certainly better than death.
Since I’m trying to approach this as a daily struggle of challenges we can maybe win against, I’ll state I’m very glad Arden is still with us. I don’t think he’ll be as reliable as he once was, but hey, better than nothing. We thought we were taking care of the Avanc issue as tragic as it was going. How could we have known how that would go? It does seem another Avanc is out there now. If I can’t charm it and Esera can’t remove the curse, maybe I’ll have to rely on the Three Ladies. They were the root of this sorrow, as they have been for so many. That is quite a tale I now know.
It seems also I’ve- Well I’m not sure but either my desires have turned to the purpose of some of Belenus or maybe there’s more a link to all of it than even I had previously considered. Suddenly I can call down wrath and fire. I can hear the truth in people’s voices by noting the varying vocal inflections. It’s similar to what Au Ben said, at least what I feel the real one would say: all is linked by something much greater than ourselves. What’s happening to us and yet all the tragedies around us, the opportunity we have… I’m really trying. I’m hoping Father Wyan can offer me a little wisdom and maybe even a little help.
We’re planning ahead for Nova Vassa too. I’m not too keen on being personally responsible for Kraj’s temper so saying he’s my slave prob won’t work. Saying he works for me, not as bad, especially since we’ve already had interactions with Lord Vanderkyte. I’m worried about the town and its temptations for my group, which is not to say I won’t have to worry about my temptations either. Maybe I’m better off as I acknowledge mine readily? Esera thought… She may be an easy target. Of course, there’s magic we have to hide too. How thankful am I to know how magic can be woven so readily?
I’m hopeful the Mayor is okay, though I fear he’s either imprisoned or worse. I wouldn’t doubt Vanderkyte having a role in that. And Karsten? He is confident but there are serious dangers. The Lawgiver would not look kindly upon him, though truly the religion seems so counter to what much of the nation is about. It’s a fickle thing. Support the laws, but support the ruler. The church should be in charge but don’t topple the government. Absolute law is cruel there and if I’m going to succeed, if we’re going to succeed we need to use that to our advantage, not run counter to it.
But hopefully I can learn more before we arrive…